Thursday, December 26, 2013
I hope everyone out there had/is having a wonderful holiday season. Mine has been pretty good. I still have those moments where I am really, really bummed out. Who wouldn't? I bared my soul to him in a way that I never do with anyone. I thought he was a keeper. Boy, was I ever wrong. I am not a good judge of character anymore, I guess. My heart gets in the way. Let this be a lesson to me...
Friday, December 20, 2013
I just am being pulled in 100 different directions right now. I miss a time where I was happier and freer, whenever that was. I know there were times like that in my past. Even if some of those times were just days or minutes, or in some cases months, but they were happy. I feel like this is one of those coming-of-age crises (I am almost 21). HELP!!!
Sunday, December 8, 2013
I guess happiness is never guaranteed. Not in life, and certainly not in love. Questioning a lot right now, like how I'm ever gonna trust again when all I ever get is abandonment. Why can't guys love me as wholly as I love them. What ever happened to commitment. Loyalty. And above all, honesty. I am so over liars. And over falling for them, a little bit harder each time. I guess I need to stop listening to my emotional, loving, giving heart....I am crying too hard to write anymore.
Friday, December 6, 2013
Tuesday, December 3, 2013
Monday, December 2, 2013
Friday, November 29, 2013
Why do I act like such a jerk. Why can't I ever leave well enough alone. Today sucks because I keep feeling like dirt and wondering if I've ruined everything. And by everything, I mean I am afraid of ending up alone again. I may just be being paranoid, but I just feel down. Totally down.